EmilyIsTrans

EmilyIsTrans Mod , 9 hours ago

Sorry if this is a dumb suggestion, but have you considered writing out what you want to say on a note and handing it to them? Coming out is hard, mine involved me blurting at my mother, flashing her, and running off. I guess I'm saying it doesn't have to be perfect, as long as you do it when you feel ready.

EmilyIsTrans OP Mod , 19 days ago

I'm not sure if mine changed, but I gave off such strong queer vibes that everyone has assumed I was bi or gay since I started high school. I could tell that as well, but not in a cohesive way that I could label, so I just kinda settled on bi.

Anyway I realised I was trans and almost completely gay for women (plus I never had a particular genitals preference). So I guess people were right, just in the wrong direction!

EmilyIsTrans OP Mod , 18 days ago

I'm not saying people didn't ever call me gay unkindly, but it wasn't like that. People were more just surprised when I identified as straight, or when I didn't show much interest in men.

EmilyIsTrans , 18 days ago

I think the Rabbit R1 is an underbaked and dumb product. That said, Rabbit would have had to have had a few too many kicks to the head if they seriously considered not just running Android under the hood. Android is open source, and there is no good reason to not utilize the hundreds of millions of dollars that Google has already poured into developing mature a mature operating system with all the drivers and frameworks they need.

EmilyIsTrans , 21 days ago

As a moderator of a couple communities, some basic/copypasta misbehaviour is caught by automated bots that I largely had to bootstrap or heavily modify myself. Near everything else has to be manually reviewed, which obviously isn't particularly sustainable in the long term.

Improving the situation is a complex issue, since these kinds of tools often require a level of secrecy incompatible with FOSS principles to work effectively. If you publicly publish your model/algorithm for detecting spam, spammers will simply craft their content to avoid it by testing against it. This problem extends to accessing third party tools, such as specialised tools Microsoft and Google provide for identifying and reporting CSAM content to authorities. They are generally unwilling to provision their service to small actors, IMO in an attempt to stop producers themselves testing and manipulating their content to subvert the tool.

EmilyIsTrans , 21 days ago

The computer is probably locked down and all software/os provisioned by their IT department

EmilyIsTrans Mod , 21 days ago

I finally pass visually, at least sometimes (I can tell because men have started referring to me as girl, and online they condescendingly explain basic programming concepts to me), but man my voice is so masculine. I've only just started voice training and I wish I had started earlier.

EmilyIsTrans Mod , 21 days ago

I'm sure you don't need me to tell you this, but having hobbies and likes that aren't traditionally feminine doesn't make you any less a woman. Every cis woman I know has at least a couple supposedly "masculine" hobbies. If you're partner is pressuring you to fit into a sexist stereotype, it sounds like they aren't actually very supportive of you.

EmilyIsTrans Mod , 21 days ago

Thanks for the encouragement <3 I've been putting it off and definitely been a bit in the "doom and gloom" headspace. I've always spoken in a fairly deep monotone, so its fair to say I was pretty daunted by the idea of manipulating my voice. That said, I actually finally managed to make some minor (but meaningful) progress last time I practiced, so hopefully I can ride on that success to motivate me!

EmilyIsTrans Mod , 19 days ago

I'll check it out! Hopefully it works as well for me as it did for you

EmilyIsTrans OP Mod , 22 days ago

For me, I found reading Honeybee extremely impactful when I started questioning my gender. Seeing someone go through the same struggles as me and having the same thoughts helped push me to finally visit my local gender clinic and start transitioning.

EmilyIsTrans OP Mod , 22 days ago

I love literature for and by trans people. The first time I really felt seen in that way was when I read Small Beauty by Jia Qing Wilson-Yang. You can just tell that it was written by a trans woman with lived experience. Trans stories written by cis people just have different vibes.

EmilyIsTrans OP Mod , 21 days ago

I double the Nevada rec! Plus, I just found out yesterday that Jane Schoenbrun is making a movie adaptation!

EmilyIsTrans , 29 days ago

This is the comment that tipped the maintainer over the edge:

ayan4m1

You should do a better job updating your documentation so that people do not waste their time like I did. This change to closed source was announced where, exactly? All of your READMEs and documentation sites do not mention this. Very easy to be confused and very disappointing to me that this went closed-source.

Not only did you sell out, you also removed all the old versions that were released under an open source license so that others couldn't continue to use out-of-support versions. DISGUSTING.

tl;dr get off GitHub and npm entirely if you want to do the closed-source thing, kthx.

Which is incredibly disrespectful in my opinion, and this kind of entitlement is what makes me weary of starting any open source projects.

EmilyIsTrans , 1 month ago

Go to your local transfem meetup

EmilyIsTrans , 1 month ago

Seattle and Redmond. So Amazon and Microsoft?

EmilyIsTrans , 1 month ago

Naming your chatbot Arya(n) is a red flag

EmilyIsTrans , 1 month ago

That seems like a terrible idea. How are you supposed to properly investigate a story if you have to first disclose the entire lead to the world? Would this not create the same kind of overreaching editorialism that investigative journalists already push against, except now the person doing the editorialising is actually a whole pool of donors?

EmilyIsTrans , 1 month ago

Ok, so they do that. Here are some things that can plausibly go wrong:

• Are the people posting the story funding thing anonymous? Because if they are, no one will fund it based on a one line description with no details. If the authors are known, any company engaging in the practice will be watching them like a hawk (essentially making investigation impossible)
• The company engaging in the practice assumes the investigation is aimed at them and temporarily stops double billing until the journalists runs out of budget and everything blows over. They then resume double billing.
• The company engaging in the practice assumes the investigation is aimed at them and consequently intimidates would-be whistleblowers into staying silent, basically preventing any progress
• The company intentionally floods "Kickstarter for News" with spurious stories to drown out the item about them
• The story isn't funded because it doesn't agree with the preconceived notion of enough users, who are only willing to fund content matching their own worldview
• The story isn't funded because, while people find it is important, more attention was placed on a story that agreed with the preconceived notion of enough users
• What stories are funded have a huge bias towards the material condition of the wealthy (moreso than now), since they are the only ones with enough disposable income to fund content. Therefore, content focused on the conditions of the poor and marginalised is ironically marginalised
• Unable to be subsidized by less prestigious entertainment content (like traditional investigative journalism was), the required upfront cost for stories balloons to a size not feasibly collected by donations
• The wider population becomes apathetic to the platform as a whole (people have actual jobs and lives, and may not have the time to trawl through potential stories for something they want to fund), leaving only the extremely wealthy/powerful to fund stories. As a consequence the media is even more controlled by the elite than it is currently
• It turns out there was never a story, and those that donated feel burned and are less likely to donate in the future
• It turns out there was never a story, and, feeling pressure to produce something, the journalists intentionally misconstrue the truth

I think a crowdsourced approach is a great idea, but only in the sense that my tax dollars go to independent news organisations.

EmilyIsTrans , 1 month ago

Are you seriously suggesting that fucking reddit karma is how we should run our news.

EmilyIsTrans , 1 month ago

Ok, so functionally reddit points, or a board of editors. Revolutionary.

EmilyIsTrans Mod , 1 month ago

My partner and I adopted a cat!

EmilyIsTrans Mod , 1 month ago

She's very precious, here is her sleeping next to me the first day we got her

EmilyIsTrans Mod , 1 month ago

It's a sylveon mimikyu! I got her shortly after I started transitioning since I like pokemon and she's a ✨girls girl✨

EmilyIsTrans Mod , 1 month ago

Every so often I get annoyed at Australia's healthcare system, then I remember the US. Sorry dude.

EmilyIsTrans , 1 month ago

I've never heard of progesterone cream, but I definitely wouldn't trust any from Amazon. I take oral progesterone and am very happy with the results

EmilyIsTrans Mod , 1 month ago

I remember reading Calvin and Hobbes, with their transmogrifier, and thinking I would write "girl" on it. Bit of foreshadowing I guess haha

EmilyIsTrans , 1 month ago

Just use Kotlin

EmilyIsTrans Mod , 1 month ago

Same. I never thought I would be off them, but here I am. Really ironic considering all the condescending people who told me I just think I'm trans because I'm depressed.

EmilyIsTrans Mod , 1 month ago

Woman probably. IDK I'm kinda just vibing it out from my brain.

Also this guy

A picture of an opossum in front of a small bottle that could have liquor.

EmilyIsTrans Mod , 1 month ago

Like the other mods, I've been following this closely and I'm happy to see you find support and community! I'm proud of you and I hope things only get better from here ❤️

EmilyIsTrans , 1 month ago

I am

EmilyIsTrans Mod , 1 month ago

I think you're in the clear lol. Reminds me of the times I left trans stuff open on my laptop in front of my brother before I was out. Turns out he already knew anyway, since instagram recommended my profile haha

EmilyIsTrans Mod , 1 month ago

IDK, I had a really good period at the end of last year where I was consistently happy and I think it was from a combination of finally liking my face, my body (mostly, I wish I was more in shape), and finally gaining the confidence to start dressing and presenting openly fem in public. Still makes my happy to the day.

EmilyIsTrans Mod , 1 month ago

Hehe no worries

EmilyIsTrans Mod , 1 month ago

I finally ordered my estrogen implants! They should be coming in the mail in about a month and then my GP will put it in!

EmilyIsTrans Mod , 1 month ago

They are! We don't really have injections down here in Australia, so doctors (the few who know trans healthcare) recommend implants for long term transition. Either way, the idea of a needle from the GP occasionally is far better than once every 4 days. My implant cost about AUD$150, plus maybe AUD$80 for the doctors appointment (both subsidized by the government though), and it should last about a year or two.

EmilyIsTrans Mod , 1 month ago

I haven't, this'll be my first. Since injections aren't really available here, my doctor recommended an implant to reduce the cardiovascular risks associated with oral estradiol. I also like the idea of them because it kinda feels like my body is just naturally producing it.

EmilyIsTrans , 2 months ago

I've gotten all my friends hooked on OpenTTD multiple separate times

EmilyIsTrans Mod , 2 months ago

I think I understand where you're coming from. Do you maybe feel overly observed (for lack of a better word)? Like, transitioning is fairly messy, complicated, and hard, and you feel a little put under a microscope without your knowledge? I'm sure you intellectually know that she was just waiting until you were comfortable discussing it with her, but I could see you reacting how you are regardless.

If that's not why you feel the way you do, is it possible you feel a little let down? Transitioning is one of the biggest things you can do as a person, and you built up to coming out, only for her to already know? I've heard that feeling expressed by a lot of queer people.

EmilyIsTrans Mod , 2 months ago

PS You're not alone in your family figuring everything out before you tell them. My parents had noticed breast growth and put two and two together years before I came out to them!

EmilyIsTrans , 2 months ago

Don't get into business with a narcissist. If you don't figure out they're a narcissist until after the business has started, bail or kick em out.

EmilyIsTrans , 2 months ago

Never? I wouldn't tolerate it and wouldn't work at a place that did

EmilyIsTrans , 2 months ago

"Colonists", "Invaders", "War Profiteers"

EmilyIsTrans Mod , 2 months ago (edited 2 months ago)

My non-binary at the time friend, now partner (!!!) convinced me to let them apply makeup on me. I had already been seriously questioning my gender for a year now. Looking in the mirror afterwards, I thought it looked a little weird but it made my brain very happy. They also changed my name in their phone to Emily after I told them I had picked it out in high school "just in case". I decided to try transitioning and never stopped, and I'm happier than ever.